Don’t Skip the Spiritual Waiting Room
Art by Alphonse Osbert
DON’T SKIP THE SPIRITUAL WAITING ROOM
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WHAT WILL YOU GAIN?
⫸ A profound new understanding of the Infancy Gospel of James
⫸ Insight into Mary as an enlightened being
⫸ A personal relationship with the sacred feminine through art.
⫸ Practical tools to embody Christ Consciousness
⫸ Deeper connection to Christian mystical lineage
⫸ A renewed sense of wonder and joy for the Advent season
⫸ A deepened capacity for prayer, presence, and mystical listening
⫸ Inspiration to live with the same courage, purity, and devotion that were Mary’s path.
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I remember my first conscious encounter with a spiritual waiting room.
I was very in love with the man who is now my husband but at the time he was very very unavailable. I couldn’t goddam believe it. I spent months cursing the vision board in my office filled with my most romantic ideas that seemed to perfectly match this unavailable dream boat.
I read and re-read the list of the 20 things I wanted to call in for a life partner and he had 19 of them (the 20th came later 💍). He was funny and handsome and could hit the high harmonies on, like, every song he played for me. He was even training to be a hospice nurse and loved to hear about all the weird death stuff I saw as a hospice chaplain.
How could he not be available? What kind of curse from the gods was this?!
Well it turns out I was actually the one who was unavailable.
You see, I was still in my own spiritual waiting room. I’ve written about my * ahem * darker periods many times so I won’t rehash them here. But suffice it to say I still had some of my own messes to clean up.
I was confused about belonging, loyalty, community, and trust. As they say in the rooms, I was shopping for groceries at the hardware store and was confused as to why I was so hungry all the time.
Had Jimi been available when we met, it would have been like finding a random loaf of bread next to the wrenches and continuing to shop at Ace’s. I’m stretching the metaphor, but you get the point.
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In truth, the Great Physician knew I wasn’t ready yet.
So while I cursed my bad luck and walked around like a raw nerve, pain and time began to do their work on me. I either offloaded or was shed from communities of people who preferred to stay small, like I had.
I got honest with myself and did the most intense 12-step work I’d ever done. I quit a toxic job and found a healthy one. I paid off the last of my credit card debt. I even started eating vegetables, for Christ’s sake. Anything to try and feel different than I did. In other words, I was growing.
Around this time I went on a pilgrimage to a sacred mountain in the Middle of Nowhere, Mexico.
Part of the pilgrimage includes an all night ceremony under the stars next to an altar stacked with cornmeal, candles, and flowers. In the insanity of getting 6 people from an outback Mexican airport into a rented van with dangerously bald tires and then 2 hours north into the desert, we had forgotten the flowers.
As most of us in the van began to stress about where we would find flowers in this waterless town, a Diné man travelling with us just chuckled and said, “I open the field of perfect timing.”
Not 20 seconds later an ancient tiny desert-brown woman selling huge piles of white lilies walked around the corner of the building next to our car. We bought our lilies and were on our way.
The same thing happened with Jimi.
After months of lamenting the impossibility of this love I had found, Jimi was suddenly available. When, exactly, you might ask? Well I remember it very precisely because it was the exact same day that the city of Denver shut down for the first time from Covid; March 14th, 2020.
I was literally emailing a property management company to rent my house and move to Santa Fe when all of a sudden he was there. And it turns out I needed every painfully long day between when I met Jimi and when we could finally be together to figure my shit out.
I never in my whole life could have planned such perfect timing. You know when you first fall in love with someone new and you just want to spend every waking hour with them; cooking, hiking, summertime biking, dancing, laughing, all of it?
Well that’s just what we got to do because the whole world was shut down leaving us nothing but time to soak each other in. And I was finally ready to do just that.
We often want to skip the spiritual waiting room, but it’s actually the best part.
And (here’s the most buried lede you’ve ever seen) Advent is the best way to get comfortable in that very waiting room. It’s the best part of why I love this time of year; it teaches us the vaule of waiting. Waiting with faith, with courage, with clarity, and with strength.
Waiting with the not-yet Holy One. Waiting for the field of perfect timing to open and the light of purpose and blessing to pour out into our lives and into the world.
I hope you’ll join me, and may lilies always be just around the corner.
ADVENT 2025 - MARY, MOTHER OF LIGHT
Digital Advent Calendar
This course is designed for seekers of all paths who long to reclaim the sacred feminine within the Christian story and to explore how Mary’s awakening mirrors our own. Together, we’ll trace her journey from conception to birth, from temple to threshold, uncovering layers of hidden symbolism that speak directly to the modern soul.
Whether you come from a background of faith, curiosity, or creative spirituality, you’ll find in these Advent days a living gospel — one that invites you to awaken the same light of consciousness that Mary carried into the world.
Course runs November 30th-December 25th 2025
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