A Love Letter from My Past Self
Ever gone back and read your journals?
I generally avoid it because a) it can be a little cringy b) it’s mostly stuff that’s no longer relevant or c) it’s issues I’m still working on and I’m dismayed there hasn’t been more progress. That, and my handwriting isn’t great so it’s usually a tough exercise in deciphering scribbles.
But I discovered some real gems when I was rereading my journals from 5 years ago in preparation for How to Lead Ceremony. Side note, you woudn’t believe all the goodies I found to cram into the course. If you’re already enrolled, there is a veritable buffet of knowledge headed your way.
Five years ago I was a jaded hospice chaplain, my community was crumbling around me while the new one was still in its infancy, and the man I was in love with was SOsososo unavailable, as was I honestly.
And I was journaling about it a lot. I wrote endless notes from Carolyn Myss books on forgiveness, pages of 12-step work, dream logs galore, and like, no less than 37 manifestation lists of what I wanted in my life but currently didn’t have.
There’s enough material in there for three more courses on forgiveness alone but what really caught my eye was how much I was actually studying myself. At the time I was trying to write myself out of a Tower card experience but looking back I can see I was doing some deep digging into the inner workings of 2019 Cindy and beginning the loving transformation into 2024 Cindy.
Need some help with that timeline jump to your future self? That’s my specialty so book a Clairvoyant Counseling call and let’s clear up anything that would keep you trapped in the past.
Since that time, I’ve changed quite a bit.
I started this business. I forgave just about everything that was keeping me hostage to resentment. I married that wonderful man in perfect timing. And I’m still sober and more intimate with Spirit than ever before.
My favorite part of that whole journal was a list of things I wanted in all my relationships but at that time had in very few (you know who you are God bless you forever you saved my ass from my own self amen!).
It’s a list if things I now have in abundance from just about every relationship. I’ve been calling it my love letter to myself. So here it is:
We fully relax with each other
We feel fully safe with each other
We trust deeply together
We are always ourselves
We teach each other from further down the path
We are fully vulnerable as we show each other our growth spots
We are attracted to what the other can teach us
We put our best offers on the table
We go all in and are available for full relationships now
We show each other every day that we are committed to staying
We each have the feeling of deep wonder, satisfaction, awe, and gratitude when we’re together
We are each deeply adored by the other
We laugh and have fun every day
I wrote that list imagining a romantic partner but it amazingly applies to every close relationship I’m in today (again, you know who you are).
So the major insight I have to share is simply that The Work works, if you work it. My memories of that time are painful and I mostly feel relief that I’m not there anymore plus everything actually turned out to be divine timing of the highest order.
But I can also see that I did everything I could to participate in that divine timing by preparing my own spirit and healing my personality to be ready for the person I became. And that’s my encouragement to you today; if you’re still in the becoming process and things seem murky as hell, keep working it.
Not only could you end up manifesting a powerful unstoppable self with all your dreams come true, but you just might end up with notebooks full of great material for teaching the world how to thrive and grow.
As a perennial student always in search of the next great teaching, that’s my hope for us both. I’ll meet you there.
In Spirit,
Rev. Cindy
Blue Lotus Teaching Ceremony
THIS SUNDAY! October 13th at Rooted Heart Yoga in Denver from 5:30-7pm
Join us for an experiential teaching ceremony using the ancient Egyptian medicine of Blue Lotus tea (one of my past life favorites).
This 75-minute prayer ceremony will include practical teachings about:
building a working altar
opening and closing the ceremony containers
connecting with the spirit of this medicine
activating the crown/heart/root chakras for full body engagement
lots of other practical tips and tricks for running a great ceremony
This event is a small sample of my new course How to Lead Ceremony.
Bring your altar items, sacred songs, musical instruments, and your holy curiosity.
We'll finish with a Q&A session and you'll get some great homework to help you start building your own prayer circle practice.
Tickets are $25 for Rooted Heart members, $30 for general public which includes medicine, snacks, and tea. Tickets available for purchase soon on the Rooted Heart Website.
How to Lead Ceremony - STARTS MONDAY! October 14th
What’s Included?
⫸ 3 months of in-depth teachings offered in person in Denver and virtually
⫸ 6 two-hour modules covering core teachings, multi-modal learning, Q&A, and direct engagement with peers and facilitator
⫸ 6 downloadable practica for you to try your new skills
⫸ 3 one-hour mentorship calls for individual support with an option to add more for $100/session
⫸ 3 Teachings from guest instructors with diverse techniques
⫸ 12 weekly emails to keep you tapped into the course
⫸ Journaling workbook to discover your unique ceremony style and medicine
⫸ Private Facebook group to share with your peers, Rev. Cindy, and other instructors
Student and Client Reviews
“Cindy’s shamanic healing really helped me shift a difficult energetic pattern I was dealing with. It opened up a greateer perspective in myself through a connection to Spirit and the greater field of Love and Understanding. I highly recommend Cindy for shamnic healing and spiritual ministry.”
— Sally S., client, colleague for 5+ years
“Cindy is an amazing healer. Not only are her sessions opening and clearing, but she has this beautiful ability to hold space for whatever occurs. Thank you for your energy, peace, and loving consciousness."
-Jessica F., client, colleague, and mentor for 7+ years
“Sitting with Cindy is such a delightful, grounding and refreshing experience. I, myself, am a skeptic and have a difficult time receiving guidance from teachers and trusting healers. Yet I feel I can trust Cindy because she embodies her teachings and overflows with sincerity.”
-Bright H., retreat participant and client for 4+ years
Head on over to the website to learn more about what I’ll be teaching, our guest instructors, course practica, and more.
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